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A good Sleep! Only one bathroom run. Maybe that long wank really tired me out. The cold night probably helped. For the cats, it was fortunate that I caught them on the patio when I had that one bathroom run, because they came inside and were happy to stay in for the night. It wasn't that cold. The temperature didn't fall into the forties. But I guess they aren't used to cold nights anymore.
This morning, as I went through my usual existential crisis while struggling to get out of bed, I asked myself, "How do I live with myself?" Not a single friend. Not a single warm voice in my life. This brought to mind my happy blogging days back in 2003 through 2005. It was only e-life. I never met any of those people in person. Still, there were a lot of wonderful conversations, even delightful flirtations. I am reminded of how invaluable that was to me. I seriously doubt that I would have made it this far without them. Before they came into my life, I was about done. I was ready to go my mother's way. They gave me a necessary boost to carry on through the days, and I am still feeding off it more than ten years later.
This morning, as I went through my usual existential crisis while struggling to get out of bed, I asked myself, "How do I live with myself?" Not a single friend. Not a single warm voice in my life. This brought to mind my happy blogging days back in 2003 through 2005. It was only e-life. I never met any of those people in person. Still, there were a lot of wonderful conversations, even delightful flirtations. I am reminded of how invaluable that was to me. I seriously doubt that I would have made it this far without them. Before they came into my life, I was about done. I was ready to go my mother's way. They gave me a necessary boost to carry on through the days, and I am still feeding off it more than ten years later.
