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Another wasted day! Pop left to spend the weekend at Kay’s. I was feeling horny and took the laptop to my room again, and I was lost in my pornutopia for over two hours.
But wasted from what? From typing excerpts from my books onto the Internet? Where it will be promptly ignored. Some loss. Certainly there is more of a payoff to my wankfest. But that doesn’t say much about what I am doing with my life, does it?
But neither can I be bothered to even try to imagine what else I can do with what is left of my time. I am physically and emotionally exhausted from all my desperation over the years in wanting to do something real and be somebody. If there was anything I could have done, I simply missed it. And there is no point in kicking myself over it anymore. I just want to relax and go down easy.
But wasted from what? From typing excerpts from my books onto the Internet? Where it will be promptly ignored. Some loss. Certainly there is more of a payoff to my wankfest. But that doesn’t say much about what I am doing with my life, does it?
But neither can I be bothered to even try to imagine what else I can do with what is left of my time. I am physically and emotionally exhausted from all my desperation over the years in wanting to do something real and be somebody. If there was anything I could have done, I simply missed it. And there is no point in kicking myself over it anymore. I just want to relax and go down easy.
