I wasn't going to post this because it perhaps hits too close to home for a number of LJers. Despair may be an occupational hazard for sensitive diarists. But it's such a perfect statement. It is art.
shame, really that so many people end up on those things. seems that pills are a quick fix and insurance companies will cover the pills more then they will cover therapy. but then agian, therapy could cure someone where the drugs will be forever. it sucks that pain and suffering is a cash cow in this country.
That last sentence may be the most profound thing you've said in weeks, Monk. As you know, I have a history of depression and I'm not at all shy about telling people that; I reckon that if people who are still struggling with it can see I'm no longer depressive, it will give them some of the hope they badly need. When I was depressed I took pills for it, and the pills did relieve the symptoms so that I could get on with life; for that purpose I think they are worthwhile. However, I was never under the illusion that they did anything to address the underlying problem, and I find it disturbing that so many people apparently are. If you take antidepressants thinking they are somehow magically going to sort your life out, then of course you're doomed to disappointment. That's not what they were ever intended to do.
Instead, by all means take the antidepressants... but with the view that, by doing so, you will be able to get yourself into a state where you are able to a) sort your own life out with help from others and b) get that help.
I guess each of us just comes up with our own reason to live. What you come up with, depends on your background, and your childhood influences.
For instance, my shrink in the US, used to tell me that when I felt suicidal, I should think of the impact my action would have on my family and loved ones. This strategy was not the ``silver bullet'' I hoped. The problem was cultural.
In every case of suicide (and my family has been wracked by a lot of them), no one has had any trouble moving on. Yup. If there is one thing my blasted family does very well, is to enjoy life, never mind what the interruption. Who was it? I think it was Dostoevsky who defined man as a creature who can get used to anything, right? Heh.
I really wish I had a less flimsy reason (I get tensed about this sometimes), but for many years now, I have been operating only with, ``Stick around a while longer. There still maybe some cool stuff out there that you have not explored yet.'' (This is also why I am terrified of boredom.)
Growing up in a city that has for many years been India's suicide capital + living in a highly religious country, where the dominant philosophy says things like: do not focus on the individual self, nirvana should be your aim, everything is meaningless etc., all may have had an impact on what ``silver bullet'' I chose. Who knows?
As expected, I have met other folks who have different reasons for living. In the end, what does it matter if some fellow bases his reasons on Scientology or is only living his shit life for the sake of his kids or whatever. The fact that he still can come up with a reason, any damn reason, shows that he wants to keep fighting. We should lend all the love and support we can, while he engages in his quest.
Especially when you are so young, there is good reason to believe that life has more in store from you, especially when you are gifted as an educated professional, which is the upper-part of society's food chain. You're even a nice-looking man. You just have way too much going for you, guy.
For me, my reason for living is to finish Grand Theft Auto 4. I think I've been playing for almost a month and I'm only about a quarter of the way through, so it could take me most of 2009! :D
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Date: 2009-01-04 04:24 am (UTC)From:it sucks that pain and suffering is a cash cow in this country.
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Date: 2009-01-04 04:49 am (UTC)From:It does sound more like part of the problem rather than the answer, doesn't it? Friends and loved ones are your best therapy, if you got them.
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Date: 2009-01-04 09:40 am (UTC)From:Instead, by all means take the antidepressants... but with the view that, by doing so, you will be able to get yourself into a state where you are able to a) sort your own life out with help from others and b) get that help.
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Date: 2009-01-04 10:03 pm (UTC)From:Reason to live
Date: 2009-01-04 08:03 am (UTC)From:For instance, my shrink in the US, used to tell me that when I felt suicidal, I should think of the impact my action would have on my family and loved ones. This strategy was not the ``silver bullet'' I hoped. The problem was cultural.
In every case of suicide (and my family has been wracked by a lot of them), no one has had any trouble moving on. Yup. If there is one thing my blasted family does very well, is to enjoy life, never mind what the interruption. Who was it? I think it was Dostoevsky who defined man as a creature who can get used to anything, right? Heh.
I really wish I had a less flimsy reason (I get tensed about this sometimes), but for many years now, I have been operating only with, ``Stick around a while longer. There still maybe some cool stuff out there that you have not explored yet.'' (This is also why I am terrified of boredom.)
Growing up in a city that has for many years been India's suicide capital + living in a highly religious country, where the dominant philosophy says things like: do not focus on the individual self, nirvana should be your aim, everything is meaningless etc., all may have had an impact on what ``silver bullet'' I chose. Who knows?
As expected, I have met other folks who have different reasons for living. In the end, what does it matter if some fellow bases his reasons on Scientology or is only
living his shit life for the sake of his kids or whatever. The fact that he still can come up with a reason, any damn reason, shows that he wants to keep fighting. We should lend all the love and support we can, while he engages in his quest.
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Date: 2009-01-04 09:57 pm (UTC)From:For me, my reason for living is to finish Grand Theft Auto 4. I think I've been playing for almost a month and I'm only about a quarter of the way through, so it could take me most of 2009! :D
Grand Theft Auto 4
Date: 2009-01-05 03:13 am (UTC)From:That is as noble a reason as any. I checked out the game at my buddy's pad yesterday, and it shone.
The storyline and the dialogues were cheeky and the gameplay was absorbing. The GTA series has always had a good thing going for it.
Incidentally, my friend shoplifted the game from the store, on a dare. Kind of poetic considering its title, eh? :)
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Date: 2009-01-04 11:28 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-01-04 10:05 pm (UTC)From: