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“Look, I don't like going from talking about how we were going to fuck to what I think about a 'Law & Order' episode, okay?”
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Gabe called tonight, but Monk did not say that quote. Of course, it could not be easy. He tried to break if off on a high, friendly note, saying that he is going back to his old compartmentalizations, and that he needs this one, last step, which is to end the calls.
When she does not accept this, he gets more creative diplomatically, telling her that he understands she is only trying to be a good friend, trying to help him, but that her calls are only making him depressed, and that she would be a greater friend if she just let him go.
She still does not accept. Monk is reduced to pleading for her to at least "think hard" about what he is saying. She said that she would, but one did not sense a lot of conviction in that promise.
After the call, when Monk went to erase the recording, he listened to the conversation, and he was feeling some doubts, loving the sound of her voice and the idea that she is actually willing to be any kind of friend to him, that she wants to talk to him at all. Should he not be happy with whatever she is willing to give him and count himself lucky?
In the end, though, one does not believe that Monk can take advantage of her good will. The balance of power is too disparate, with him all alone and she intimately involved with others. It hurts too much, after so much had been promised to him; he would rather have nothing than be reminded of his shortcomings and pain.
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“Look, I don't like going from talking about how we were going to fuck to what I think about a 'Law & Order' episode, okay?”
~
Gabe called tonight, but Monk did not say that quote. Of course, it could not be easy. He tried to break if off on a high, friendly note, saying that he is going back to his old compartmentalizations, and that he needs this one, last step, which is to end the calls.
When she does not accept this, he gets more creative diplomatically, telling her that he understands she is only trying to be a good friend, trying to help him, but that her calls are only making him depressed, and that she would be a greater friend if she just let him go.
She still does not accept. Monk is reduced to pleading for her to at least "think hard" about what he is saying. She said that she would, but one did not sense a lot of conviction in that promise.
After the call, when Monk went to erase the recording, he listened to the conversation, and he was feeling some doubts, loving the sound of her voice and the idea that she is actually willing to be any kind of friend to him, that she wants to talk to him at all. Should he not be happy with whatever she is willing to give him and count himself lucky?
In the end, though, one does not believe that Monk can take advantage of her good will. The balance of power is too disparate, with him all alone and she intimately involved with others. It hurts too much, after so much had been promised to him; he would rather have nothing than be reminded of his shortcomings and pain.
