68. My Ultimate Journal

I started reading my Three Journal material, and I am very happy with it. I feel as though I have finally found my voice and my purpose, after all these years fiddling around with this project and then that project. That's not to say it couldn't be better, but it works for me. The limitation rests more on my own lack of talent rather than on the project design. Now I just have to keep building on it, and I can enjoy rereading it till the end of my days, my ultimate journal, the record of my loves and friends that I have known and lost.

My only regret is that I wish I had something going on so that I am at least shooting for a payday, such as a good short story, something real, something social, instead of just something to wile away my hours and run out my life.