Sunday

I'm glad I decided to check at Amazon. My cards were sitting in my mailbox all this time.

"There you are!"

Yeah, I forgot the rule: if I don't force myself to put down some words, they just won't come at all.

I keep looking for value.

"What? Are you talking about the cards, or the words?

Heh, I suppose it could apply to both, but I was talking about the words. I slip into thinking that what I write ought to mean something. As opposed to, you know, commenting on the overcast morning and the lovely springtime breezes. So, I decide not to bother to sit down and write something out. But when I give in to that, then I just never write anything. And although that might be best, I still have that thing, that bug, I want to something down. Anything. Just to do it.

"Funny, it wasn't long ago, as I recall, that you were perfectly content to fall into a 'dormant season', as you put it, I think. You were quite willing to go silent and maybe wait for months until another blurty mood came upon you. Is that not so?"

Yes, I remember. I guess I was feeling pretty serene, zen-like, and I was cool with letting things be.

"What are feeling now?"

More high-strung: like when you go to bed but you just know that you will not be able to sleep. So, as long as I am up, in a sense, why not work out my brain a little bit.

Home Life

I seem to be a bit diarrheic. Since that frozen pizza I had for lunch. Could it have been the cheese? the tomato sauce? bad pepperoni?

"Uggh, I think I prefer weather reports."

Heh, but this is more impactful on my life.

"Can't the aesthetic outweigh the impactful?"

I deal in truth, baby, capital 'T', the good, the bad, and the ugly.

"And to think you don't have any friends!"

A real mystery, isn't it?

Getting Warmer

We're at that time of the glide path to spring and summer when it is wonderfully cool outside but not so cool that it keeps the house cool. Those breezes are not blowing into the windows, and the house feels like a heat trap. One isn't feeling tortured yet, thank god! But it's definitely warmish, and the T-shirt comes off, as you are on the border of comfort and discomfort. I just know April is going to be a long month.