Among my first thoughts on this clear-eyed morning was how generously fate played with me anent the end. I have been given almost an entire month with the house to myself, living a little as though I were my own man, even though I am really only flying on Arthudo's leftovers - and, yes, under his name (which was always very important to him). I was given a goodly amount of time to accept my fate in some comfort and leisure and to make my peace with it. Things could have been worse.