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"LOL You're hobbling about like an old man again, I see."
I'm glad you think it's funny.
I threw my back out of whack again. Whew, it really takes away from the quality of life: when you cannot even walk or move without pain.
Though, at the risk of sounding melodramatic, I am kind of welcoming it. It can help to make ... final decisions easier - when, among all the other shit, life means living with chronic pain.
"And you were afraid of being melodramatic! We should call you Suicide Monk or something. You really are worse than an emo teenager."
Well ... I admit I have perhaps overdone it over the years. But you really can't deny that the end is nigh. Poor old Arthudo could collapse any day. He cannot go on carrying me on his back forever. So, yeah, it's on my mind. It's kind of foreseeable. It might not be a bad idea to try to be mentally prepared for it.
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Marco Rubio: "America is at risk of becoming class warfare on the left and ethnic nationalism on the right."
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May 15, 1994
I noticed that Princess had "numerous complex knots in her coat", and I set about trying to fix her up. Since she was always with Teri, I must have conveniently considered Princess to be her responsibility. My bad.
* * *
Rebecca Traister: "That’s because this world is stacked in favor of men, yes, in a way that is so widely understood as to be boring, invisible, just life. But more deeply, this will happen because we can see in men — even in the bad ones — talent. We manage to look past their flaws and sexual violations to what value they bring to the world. It is the direct opposite, in many ways, of how we view women, whose successes can still be blithely attributed to the fact that the boss wanted to fuck them."
[The Cut]
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I shouldn't be surprised that Arthudo would give Jill a crack at the car engine, even though she has never managed to fix a car problem yet in over twenty years. She is good at taking things apart, but putting them together - not so much. I remember that is the way her father, Falstaff, 'fixed' our toilet once, too, leaving us with just a hole in the floor. But Arthudo can never overlook a chance at a 'bargain'. And, of course, a whole crew comes along for free munchies. I just wonder if they will be here for the rest of the day - and maybe tomorrow.
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May 15, 1994
"Our skin is breaking out yet again," Ego observes. "Struck blood tonight!"
"It no longer matters, does it?" Dark Spirit comments. "After this many years of sexual deprivation, there can be only a few dying embers of tortured expectation left."
"Yes, but that doesn't mean we are pain-free," Romantic Soul answers.
* * *
Arthudo just dropped a bombshell. Kay is coming tomorrow and will be staying until Saturday. Something about needing a new bed and not being able to get it delivered until Saturday, blah, blah, blah. God ... why not strike me down now!?
"Suicide Monk."
Yeah, I'm just ... I'm not tough enough for life and this world. It feels like I get so little out of it, and it's just more shit and more shit.
I'm glad you think it's funny.
I threw my back out of whack again. Whew, it really takes away from the quality of life: when you cannot even walk or move without pain.
Though, at the risk of sounding melodramatic, I am kind of welcoming it. It can help to make ... final decisions easier - when, among all the other shit, life means living with chronic pain.
"And you were afraid of being melodramatic! We should call you Suicide Monk or something. You really are worse than an emo teenager."
Well ... I admit I have perhaps overdone it over the years. But you really can't deny that the end is nigh. Poor old Arthudo could collapse any day. He cannot go on carrying me on his back forever. So, yeah, it's on my mind. It's kind of foreseeable. It might not be a bad idea to try to be mentally prepared for it.
* * *
Marco Rubio: "America is at risk of becoming class warfare on the left and ethnic nationalism on the right."
* * *
May 15, 1994
I noticed that Princess had "numerous complex knots in her coat", and I set about trying to fix her up. Since she was always with Teri, I must have conveniently considered Princess to be her responsibility. My bad.
* * *
Rebecca Traister: "That’s because this world is stacked in favor of men, yes, in a way that is so widely understood as to be boring, invisible, just life. But more deeply, this will happen because we can see in men — even in the bad ones — talent. We manage to look past their flaws and sexual violations to what value they bring to the world. It is the direct opposite, in many ways, of how we view women, whose successes can still be blithely attributed to the fact that the boss wanted to fuck them."
[The Cut]
* * *
I shouldn't be surprised that Arthudo would give Jill a crack at the car engine, even though she has never managed to fix a car problem yet in over twenty years. She is good at taking things apart, but putting them together - not so much. I remember that is the way her father, Falstaff, 'fixed' our toilet once, too, leaving us with just a hole in the floor. But Arthudo can never overlook a chance at a 'bargain'. And, of course, a whole crew comes along for free munchies. I just wonder if they will be here for the rest of the day - and maybe tomorrow.
* * *
May 15, 1994
"Our skin is breaking out yet again," Ego observes. "Struck blood tonight!"
"It no longer matters, does it?" Dark Spirit comments. "After this many years of sexual deprivation, there can be only a few dying embers of tortured expectation left."
"Yes, but that doesn't mean we are pain-free," Romantic Soul answers.
* * *
Arthudo just dropped a bombshell. Kay is coming tomorrow and will be staying until Saturday. Something about needing a new bed and not being able to get it delivered until Saturday, blah, blah, blah. God ... why not strike me down now!?
"Suicide Monk."
Yeah, I'm just ... I'm not tough enough for life and this world. It feels like I get so little out of it, and it's just more shit and more shit.
