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I am sorry that my nights are going by so dreamlessly. One might think I ought to be having doozies. However, since my conscious days are so busy with all that is going on, I suppose my subconscious nights don't feel a need to work the material over.

It's probably too much to ask to have dreams in which Jack and I are small kids and Teri and Arthudo are still young adults and we are simply a family in its prime, when death is something that happens to others, something you might hear about in the news. It would be a nice note to go on. I would just make one addition: Bo and Princess are also there and are young and beautiful. Maybe I watch too many movies.

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Arthudo still hasn't come to, is still in intensive care. Lorie reported that he was able to breathe on his own yesterday. I didn't even know that he was ever unable to. He was breathing when the paramedics took him away. She was not clear, and it sounded like he might have lapsed back to needing artificial respiration.

I still like to think it's possible that things will go back to at least something close to normal, and we will be able to go back to the life we've known for another good couple of years. However, I have also had more time to brace myself for the worst, gearing up to let go and take my own leave of this earthly mess.

And now I am feeling more sorry about the cats. For their whole ten years, Ash & Sammy have been used to having food and water practically at will, not to mention a pretty good shelter protecting them from the storms and freezing winter temperatures. I wish I were resourceful enough to do something for my babies. But, hey, ten years isn't bad, and neither is fifty-four.

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I found a movie I was able to enjoy: "Her" - the love story for the 21st century between a boy and his computer. I could use at least one more like that, something about loss and longing, losing and learning. Something about the end of the world might not be bad. I wish "Melancholia", starring Kirsten Dunst, were available for free streaming. At the moment I cannot think of another movie.

On a more mundane note, I have been debating whether to shave. A shave always refreshes me. But do I want to feel refreshed?? Going out more natural and Jesus-y has an appeal. Right now, I am leaning in favor of shaving, but I'll see what I feel like doing in the relatively clear-eyed morning.