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Sugar has fallen into her own pit of depression. I noticed she was tweeting less, but I figured she was only Facebooking more, or that she possibly outgrew social media altogether. It sounds like a serious episode, the sort of thing she used to talk to me about - her lack of "spoons". She even took herself off the job for a while.
Recall, I came to think in recent years that her problems were mainly psychological, and what she really needed was to secure in her own right her upper-middle-class status, instead of just being daddy's girl, an adult child. I noted that the crippling depression seemed to disappear with her success as a journalist on Winnipeg's number-one newspaper - no more shortage of spoons.
But I guess her problems are deeper than that. Maybe it is organic. When we used to talk, she attributed the bulk of her problems to her mother, her adopted mother, saying that she broke her, how she felt that she could have been a much more special person excerpt for this damage that her mother caused. I am now guessing that this was a misattribution, and that it really is a problem of her brain-chemistry. The problem perhaps just began to manifest itself while she was living with her mother as a teenager. This is not to say that there was no strife between them, but only that it perhaps got confounded with what was happening to her physically, neurologically.
She has the best medical care, but the doctors cannot pinpoint it. Brain-chemistry is still a new frontier, though. It's not like diagnosing and treating a heart problem.
Recall, I came to think in recent years that her problems were mainly psychological, and what she really needed was to secure in her own right her upper-middle-class status, instead of just being daddy's girl, an adult child. I noted that the crippling depression seemed to disappear with her success as a journalist on Winnipeg's number-one newspaper - no more shortage of spoons.
But I guess her problems are deeper than that. Maybe it is organic. When we used to talk, she attributed the bulk of her problems to her mother, her adopted mother, saying that she broke her, how she felt that she could have been a much more special person excerpt for this damage that her mother caused. I am now guessing that this was a misattribution, and that it really is a problem of her brain-chemistry. The problem perhaps just began to manifest itself while she was living with her mother as a teenager. This is not to say that there was no strife between them, but only that it perhaps got confounded with what was happening to her physically, neurologically.
She has the best medical care, but the doctors cannot pinpoint it. Brain-chemistry is still a new frontier, though. It's not like diagnosing and treating a heart problem.
