What good timing. I recently discussed, in relation to a British ad campaign promoting atheism, the issues of faith and doubt and my own flirtations with the supernatural. Not long after that, I discovered the novel
“John” by Niall Williams about the apostle’s last days with his small coterie of followers, and it is a much more dramatic background to highlight the tensions between faith and doubt looking at the first generation after the crucifixion of Christ, watching the schisms develop and seeing these early Christians facing the plethora of faiths competing for believers, which also fans doubt about the Christian faith, whether it really might be just another contrivance of an ambitious but utterly human being. Even though I’m not a Christian, I think it made for a happier story that the author made their faith true. Happy endings are sometimes nice.
And Williams brings such a poetic grace to this dance between faith and doubt. It pains me that this is a library book, as this is definitely a lifetime-rereadable for me, and I’m much more reserved about buying books these days, being more content to regard the books in my reading life as disposable. But if I didn’t go to the library, I most likely would never have come across it in the first place, just as I discovered the Nina Zero series at the library, and which I may have gone my whole life without knowing of it otherwise. Amazon’s algorithms for pointing out useful recommendations are obviously not perfect. I guess you really do have to leave the house to meet more interesting people as well as more interesting books. I may end up buying “John” anyway, in the likely event that I feel like rereading the story, in a year or so.